18-08-2014: I saw Terry today, he looked awful. He appeared to be wandering around inside the selfish maze of his own head. Rest assured, Terry’s head is not a good place to be. Passing him by in the busy Southend-On-Sea High Street I could see his eyes were glazed over with an angry, vacant inward stare. He never noticed me at all. Looking at him walk by it seemed all those thoughts that filled his head made his lips move slightly. Mumbling to himself, sorting out yesterdays ills.
This post attempts to detail how the nature of the 12 step programme is missed by many addicts who simply march on in their own self will disguised as some strange misunderstanding of God.
Only the other day I bumped into an old AA colleague from London who was sharing at a local Southend On Sea meeting nearby to where I live. I told him how relieved I was since my baptism 6 years ago and how Jesus has enforced changed in my life through scripture and mature Christians. While we were stood having coffee in a church hall just before the meeting started, he responded with;
“I’ve never set foot in a church in my life, no need to mate, I’ve got enough here in AA”.
“You’re in a church now” I replied and told him that we AA’s can harp on about higher powers without really knowing the force behind the twelve step fellowship. When AA members bang on about “the rooms” they mean church halls, but fail to recognize that fact. I told my friend further that I went to a meeting that was held at a Town Hall, and how security guards refused us entry and cancelled the meeting due to a bomb scare in another Town Hall 40 miles away. This had happened a few times. This particular meeting had cameras in the corner of the room and was watched over by an omnipotent order of the day called gum chewing security guards who had power over whether we could attend the meeting, or not. Without churches there would be no AA, because people and systems would control the order of the day, which cannot work. All church leaders and elders allow meetings to go ahead and hand out keys to all sorts of ex-drunks without hankering on about security, why? Because God’s house is always open, that’s why!